When I do my prayer and meditation in the morning, I usually get a word to dwell on from Spirit while I am meditating. This morning the word was “authentic.” Almost immediately my mind came up with several people in my life that seem authentic to me. Unfortunately I was not on that list.
Later in the day, I decided to look up the definition of the word “authentic.” According to Merriam Webster, one of the definitions is:
“true to one’s own personality, spirit, or character.”
It doesn’t matter if we agree on theology, politics or anything else, I can hear if a person is speaking their authentic truth. It is obvious to me if they really believe what they are saying or are just mouthing the words they heard from some minister, politician, conspiracy theorists or hate group. If a person is speaking truth from their heart I have respect for that even if I don’t agree.
I hurt my own feelings by not putting myself on my imaginary “authentic person’s list.” But I don’t think I belong there right now.
I call myself a writer but I have let numerous things keep me from dedicating my life to writing. Well I was taking care of my aging dog who finally passed on, then came the holidays, then the cold weather and I have pain when I sit too long at my computer. Oh and there’s always those social opportunities that I can’t say “no” to. I usually make my yoga practice a priority, so why not treat my writing the same way? I have actually made a little bit of money from my first book but have I made the moves necessary to promote it or start the next one? Not really.
I did a lot of work to get ordained as an Interfaith Minister and I will tell people that’s what I am, but have I taken any steps to work on my ministry or further cooperation and discussions in an Interfaith situation? Not lately.
I have recently decided I want to do some work in grief counseling. While I took a class in Grief Recovery, have I done any work in getting certified or even volunteered at a hospice to get some experience? Well I looked up classes and got discouraged because some of them are pretty expensive. There’s nothing authentic about having a dream and letting fear or worry stand in your way.
If being authentic is showing your true self to others and standing up for what you believe is true, then I have been lacking in those areas too. I don’t post controversial material on Facebook even if I believe and support what it says. I have a diverse group of friends and something might offend someone. Well I don’t see too many other people holding back when it’s a message of hate, racism or judgement. I want to be a force for understanding, peace and love.
I am going to work on my authenticity. I won’t beat myself up because I think for the most part I’m a pretty good person, but if I don’t believe me, then why would anyone else?
What do you think about yourself? Are you being authentic in your own life right now? I think that is something for all of us to consider, but be kind in this journey! Too many others will pick on you. You don’t have to pick on yourself. Just make some small changes toward becoming your authentic self.